It has become crystal clear to me as I have spent so much time with
Lillian that she is the carrier of a wealth of wisdom. Some of that is
from her years of experience. More, I believe, comes from her
willingness to let God direct her life. Lillian has never been one to
offer advice, so these words of wisdom were hard come by. They
have been gleaned from tapes answering specific questions I asked,
from the numerous letters we exchanged, and from the many
conversations we shared during the past two years.
PHILOSOPHY OF LIFE
Lillian's world view is that God is in charge and that He, not world
governments, will determine the earth's destiny. She believes also
that He expects us to help preserve what is worthwhile in our culture
and to also, by being salt and light, turn people's hearts toward Him
by demonstrating better ways of living. She adds quite emphatically
though, that she is far from a perfect Christian and that there are still
times when she has doubts, still times when she's selfish; she is still
very human.
She has amplified this philosophy in a lesson she gave several years
ago at a Ladies' Retreat in Alberta:
Horrors in our world such as the civil wars in Bosnia and Somalia
sometimes distress her to the point of asking herself, "How can God
look and see those things continue where innocent people suffer so
much?" But she remembers that Malachi said, "We weary the Lord
when we ask `Where is the God of justice?'" and she reminds herself
that she is only human and can never fully understand God's ways.
She knows that God is the God of justice and that in the end, his ways
are always right. Her prayer is, "I believe. Help thou my unbelief."
She believes that loving God and her fellow-man is uppermost: "Life
is what we make it. Certainly it is influenced by ancestry and
environment, but I believe that once we're grown up we can't blame
our weaknesses on others. We must take responsibility for ourselves
and what we do. It is our own attitude that determines whether life is
good or not."
SPIRITUAL GROWTH
Lillian's opinions and attitudes concerning faith and the real meaning
of being a Christian have predictably, changed over the years. From
her earliest recollections, she knew that God existed, that He was
important in her life and that she wanted to please Him. She also
wanted to know more about Him which is why she bought the little
Bible when she was twelve. She liked to go to church but isn't sure
why. She knows her mother was a Godly woman but doesn't
remember her ever telling her a Bible story.
During the year she spent in North Dakota, she regularly attended the
Lutheran church - alone. When the family moved to Radville the next
year, there was no Lutheran church there, so she began regularly
attending what would later become the United Church - again alone.
Her faith has been a very personal one all of her life.
When she was first baptized, her only understanding was that if she
wanted to be saved and go to heaven she had to obey God. After her
baptism, she immersed herself in reading books, attending all church
services as well as any gospel meetings she could get to. She says, "I
became well grounded in the scriptures and in the restoration
hermeneutic - approved apostolic example, direct command to the
church, necessary inference and the silence of the scriptures. The
Bible was the authority; it was God's word." Following the scriptural
patterns was, and still is, very important to her.
Equally important was moral integrity. Virtues such as honesty,
loyalty, responsibility, clean speech, sexual purity and faithfulness in
marriage came to her from her mother and in her new life as a child
of God, her commitment to these Biblical values only increased.
"But", she says, "somehow I didn't realize that Christianity should
change me. I was basically the same selfish person I had been
before."
Then, as a young adult at summer Bible schools, she was introduced
to the significance of love in the life of the Christian - that God loves
us and expects us to love one another. Col.3:12 - " clothe yourselves
with compassion, humility, gentleness and patience . . . And over all
these virtues put on love . . ." now had real significance for her! She
wholeheartedly grasped this new understanding; her whole mind set
changed, from rule keeping to the beauty of loving relationships both
with God and with one another.
In spite of all of this study and enlightenment there have been times
of doubt and fear in her life. She worked her way through her earliest
doubts about the possibility that the Bible was not God's word by
reading and studying Christian evidences. Over time she came to
understand that doubts come to everyone. She is no longer distressed
when they appear; confronting them head on rather than denying
them. She says, "Even today I sometimes wonder why God has
allowed the senseless slaughter of innocents in Rwanda or the
tragedies in the former Yugoslavia. When I don't know the answers
I think of Deut. 29:29, 'The secret things belong to the Lord our God,
but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that
we may follow all the words of this law.'"
Although this faithful young woman read her Bible regularly and
made obedience a high priority she continued to experience feelings
of sadness, even loss. God was all-important to her, but her
knowledge of Him was so puny. And then one day she suddenly
gained another new insight! God was not just a distant
Creator/Saviour; she could know him personally through Jesus! John
14: 9, 10 leaped off the page at her, "How can you say, 'Show us the
Father?' Don't you believe that I am in the Father and that the Father
is in me? . . . It is the Father living in me, who is doing His work."
She says, "That I could know God more personally by reading of
Christ's life and teachings was a revelation and insight very precious
to me."
In later years, as she grew and matured, she became more acutely
aware of God's grace, his gift of love. The realization that we are
saved by grace and not by works; that we do the works because we're
saved, not in order to be saved, was both exciting and liberating for
her.
And again later, within the past couple of years in fact, she has come
to recognize, in addition to everything else, the wonderful blessing of
Christ, our Saviour, sitting at the right hand of Jehovah God,
interceding on our behalf. The wonder of Christianity is that we never
understand it all, that there is always something new to discover in
God's Word, and in our relationship with him. She says, "Because the
Christian life is a lifelong process of learning and growing, and
because Christians are at different stages in that growing, I think we
should be tolerant and understanding of others who may not always
think exactly as we do. I think we should be very careful about
labelling fellow Christians with such terms as hypocrite, ignorant,
biased, or even liberal or conservative if we are considering those
terms in a derogatory sense. May God help us to keep on learning
His Will."
SOURCE OF STRENGTH
One of Lillian's major sources of strength throughout her life has
been Romans 8:28, "And we know that in all things God works for the
good of those who love him , who have been called according to his
purpose." She cherishes several examples of the truth of this promise
in her own life over the years. The earliest incident was after the end
of her year in North Dakota when she was thirteen. She was bitterly
disappointed that she wasn't allowed to go back to her aunt's for
Grade Eight.
She loved her family, but she also loved the greater opportunities to
learn at the school in Velva. She could have finished her schooling,
gone to teachers' college and then taught down there. It certainly
sounded like a good idea to her, if not to her mother! And of course
her life would have been totally different had she gotten her desire at
that time. Because she moved to Radville rather than Velva, she came
in contact with H.A. Rogers and through him was baptized into Jesus
Christ, the one who has directed her life ever since.
Another disappointment that God turned around for her was in 1939,
when she had decided to leave Robsart and move to some place
where there was a church. She applied to both Oungre and Radville
but preferred Radville because she had gone to high school and
summer Bible schools there. You'll remember that she was
disappointed when she heard from Radville after she'd accepted
Oungre and was mightily tempted to change her decision. But again
God worked things out for her greater good. She realized later that if
she had gone to Radville she probably would have been content to
stay there, not bothering to complete her university degree and be
ready and qualified to teach high school when RCC opened.
A third incident was after the seventh summer Bible school when she
received that letter suggesting somebody else should look after the
finances. She was deeply wounded that anybody would question her
honesty. She was so hurt she couldn't even talk to anyone about it;
she just quietly resigned, withdrew and turned her attention to
summer university classes. Once again God had taken her
disappointment and guided her into more preparation for the work He
had for her to do.
Probably the most painful of all of these disappointments was her
decision not to marry. During her early teaching years there was
someone she cared for very deeply, but she knew it could not work
out. Although she was pretty grimly unhappy about it, she determined
that this personal sadness would not keep her life from being good.
Even though she believed she could have had a good life in marriage,
she decided she would be content as a single woman, and eventually
that contentment came. It has always been her personal philosophy
that it is our own attitude that determines whether or not we will be
happy and contented.
It became crystal clear to her, as the years passed, that the time and
energy she needed to fulfill her commitment to Radville and Western
Christian College was far greater than she could have given as a
married woman. Once again God had given her more and used her
more than would have been possible had she gotten what she thought
she wanted.
Lillian attributes her faithfulness throughout the nearly seventy years
of her walk with God primarily to two things - her daily quiet time
with God, reading and meditating on and praying over His Word, and
also with the importance to her of communing with Him each Sunday
over the bread and wine, symbols of Jesus' saving sacrifice. She has
missed this appointment only twice, in spite of the fact that most of
one year at Robsart she broke bread alone.
SUCCESS
What is success? It is generally defined as having a goal and
achieving it. Lillian, however, believes that working at that goal
brings success, whether or not there has been a hundred percent
achievement. When she worked with students in school who had
great academic difficulty, perfection was usually an unrealistic goal.
Often, though, both she and the student had great feelings of success
and achievement with a grade of fifty percent because both had done
their best.
In discussing her own success, she believes that, on the most
fundamental level, success is growth and in that respect she
recognizes that she has achieved some success. Although she can't
fully evaluate the extent of her own growth, she doesn't think she has
arrived. The anticipation of continued growth pleases her. She can,
though, as she looks back over the past eighty-four years, see areas
of her life in which she has grown:
MISSION
All that Lillian ever wanted to do was teach. She first became
interested because she admired her teachers who opened up a whole
new world for her. She perceived it as a special task to "open the
books of knowledge to an inquiring mind." There is nothing that
brought her greater pleasure than to make people see the beauties of
poetry and laughter, and to experience the excitement of adventure
stories, the sadness of tragedies and the visions of geography.
But it wasn't until after RCC came into existence that she began to
think of her teaching as a mission. Her goal even while teaching in
public schools was to make good and happy citizens, so she certainly
realized that she didn't have to be teaching in a Christian school in
order to do good. She had always believed in the importance of
teaching responsibility, and so in that sense she recognized the
mission of what she did. However, when she moved into life at RCC,
she realized not only that she had a very special mission from God
but that God had been preparing her for that purpose throughout all
of her life. The thought that this was "My Task" gave her a wonderful
sense of satisfaction, contentment and happiness. She subscribes to
Cardinal Newman's view of mission, "God has created me to do Him
some definite service. He has committed some work for me which He
has not committed to another. I have my mission."
SIN
Lillian believes strongly that the reason we do or don't do the things
we ought is because we don't control our thoughts and our will, that
behind every action or inaction is a thought. Because sin is a reality
in all of our lives we sometimes don't pay enough attention to its
awfulness; it is corroding and destroying and must be confronted.
Sometimes it is not possible for us to get rid of the sin in our lives
without God's grace to enable us to grow past it. She urges all parents
and educators to consider the many ways to develop self-control and
self-discipline in the lives of children.
Now, as a senior, she recognizes how imperative that need is, and she wonders if she did enough to try and develop self-control in her students. Because they were away from their parents, she felt an extra burden to do such things as make sure they completed their homework. Now she wonders if she didn't allow them to realize what would happen if they didn't do it. (Except get in trouble with her!)
Lillian's conscience has always been tender about leaving undone
things she should have done, particularly pertaining to evangelism
and talking to people about her faith. Because she knows she is better
at writing than face to face dialogues, she has accepted Bible
correspondence course work as her way of doing something to spread
the message of God's love. She also accepts that we all have different
talents and missions and that none of us can do everything well. She
is secure in the knowledge that Jesus understands her, intercedes for
her and covers her with his grace.
Young people are sometimes mistaken in thinking that because older
people have a quieter life there is no sin in their lives. While it's true
that they may not struggle with the same temptations they did when
they were young, the temptations have not disappeared, just changed.
Older people may be more challenged by such things as neglecting
their spiritual life, harbouring bitterness, sometimes gossip, perhaps
not giving in the same spirit they once did and a myriad of other
things. Life is a never ending struggle.
PRAYER
Prayer has always been an important part of Lillian's life. When she
was a very little girl she said her prayers in Norwegian, the only
language God spoke, so she thought. Later, when she began praying
in English, she recited Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep and The Lord's
Prayer. She never thought of wording a personal prayer until after
she became a Christian. Actually, that's not quite accurate. She
prayed a very personal prayer when she was only twelve years old,
promising God she would read her Bible every day until she was
twenty.
When she was fifteen and a half she was baptized into Christ and
started praying daily. Because of her still immature understanding
about God's grace, she didn't dare go to bed at night without asking
God to forgive her. Her prayers were primarily self-centred ones - for
forgiveness, as well as for her own wants and desires. But even these
selfish prayers were good for her; they helped her over difficult and
sad times - times when she knew she'd made mistakes and wondered
how she'd get over them and times when she had to make crucial
decisions. She was considerably older before she was mature enough
to spend much time praying for others.
Her prayer life has changed since she's been retired. Much of this, of
course, is also a result of her growth over the years; everything didn't
just automatically shift the day she retired. Her quiet time with God
has moved from evening to morning and she finds that much more
beneficial. It is a more leisurely exercise; she reads longer and then
spends more time in prayer.
She has a specific routine she follows. First, she gives thanks for her
blessings, even if she's had a poor night's sleep and doesn't feel very
well. By the time she's itemized all of her blessings she can't help but
feel much better. Because her life is more restricted she prays for
fewer things for herself, and she moves more quickly into asking
blessings for individuals - her sisters, Eleanora and Clarice, her
fellow senior sisters in the Lord, people in poor health, or those
having family or financial problems.
When it comes to problem solving, she believes that we shouldn't
pray for something and then just sit back and expect God to put it in
our hands. He has given us intelligence, and when we ask for
something we should rather, expect Him to help us through that
intelligence. She's very aware that on many occasions, after praying
for such help, an idea has popped into her head about how to solve
her problem. She firmly believes that God and His Holy Spirit gave
her that answer. He has promised to never leave or forsake us.
DEATH
Lillian's understanding of death and her way of coping with it
modified over the years, particularly as loved ones died. She was
only nine when her Father died. She was very sad, but as you'll
remember, it wasn't appropriate to grieve openly. She missed him, but
again, it wasn't something to talk about. After she became a Christian
and understood that baptism by immersion was necessary, she went
through a period of time when she was very anxious about her
Father's state in death. She knew that he was a believer (she could
remember him singing When The Roll Is Called Up Yonder), but she
was also very aware that he had not been immersed. Eventually, she
came to terms with it and left it in God's hands. "God is a just God,
whose thoughts are far above mine."
When she was seventeen years old, her baby brother died when he
was only seventeen days old. This was a terrible shock to her and
perhaps the beginning of her recognition that death comes to
everyone and only God knows the time and circumstance of our
departure.
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It was a sad day indeed for Lillian when Signe Jelsing MacLeod died
in 1963. She had been one of her dearest and closest friends from her
youth. Signe had been her confidante, the friend who knew her better
than anyone else. She had been bridesmaid at Signe's wedding. They
had taught together, dreamed together, laughed together, planned and
even grumbled together.
When Signe was teaching in Ceylon, they were able to keep in close
touch, but then she and her family moved to Saskatoon and they
didn't see each other as often. In addition, there had been a strain in
their relationship, since Cecil's resignation from Western, that
brought a deep sadness to Lillian's heart. So, when she heard that
Signe had terminal cancer it was a profound shock to her.
She desperately wanted to go to Saskatoon to see her, but there were
no substitutes for her classes and she struggled with her incessant
feelings of responsibility to her students. She heard that Signe was in
the hospital and not expected to live long, so she and Clarice decided
to go on the weekend. Sadly, when they arrived in Saskatoon they
discovered that she had died just hours before they got there.
She has, of course, always regretted not taking the time earlier. She
felt cheated that they didn't get to spend any time together. She
grieved for her for a very long time, but eventually the memories of
the good times became stronger than the pain of losing her. Signe had
always been a major influence in Lillian's life, and the faith and
serenity with which she met her own dying made a permanent
impression on Lillian's own thinking about death and dying.
~
She believes that the death of her mother on August 14, 1977 made
the greatest impact on her life. Hulda had lived with Lillian since
Eddy's death. She was an amazingly active ninety four. Her mind was
clear and lively, as were her fingers. She was limited physically, but
determined to do as much as she could. After the shock and grief of
losing Eddy eased, she began to enjoy life at Western, going to
basketball games, Lectureship and other events with Lillian. She was
still pretty independent and enjoyed making her own bed and doing
dishes, reading books and doing handwork.
During the summer holidays Hulda and Lillian often went back to
Lake Alma, and one Sunday, they decided to go from there to
Bowbells, North Dakota to visit some relatives. They attended the
morning service at the Estevan church and then headed for Bowbells.
About fifteen miles from their destination, Hulda needed a bathroom.
Lillian noticed a gas station on the left, and after checking down the
road, started her turn. Suddenly a car appeared, seemingly out of
nowhere, and drove into Hulda's side of the car. She didn't have her
seat belt on because of abdominal discomfort following surgery and
she was very seriously injured.
Lillian was stunned, bruised and bleeding, but the sequence of events
is burned in her memory - someone calling an ambulance, a passing
nurse doing what she could to make Hulda comfortable and offering
to notify Lillian's cousins in Bowbells whom she happened to know,
being taken to Estevan hospital, Mother being quickly transferred to
Regina, the agony of being unable to accompany Mother to Regina
because of her own condition, the kindness of Steve Ennis in phoning
family, as well as his going to the accident site and then returning to
explain to her that the reason she hadn't seen the oncoming car was
because of a dip in the road under a railroad overpass. He even timed
the distance from the dip to the accident site at seven seconds.
She also remembers the policeman visiting her while she was still in
Estevan hospital and giving her a ticket for reckless driving.
At about 8:00 p.m. that evening, a nurse came to tell her that Mother
had passed away. That was a very long, dark night and sleep eluded
her.
The following afternoon she was released from hospital and Ivy
Pawlak came to take her back to Weyburn. Another series of images
flood her memory - grieving with sister Clarice who arrived very
soon after she got home, the kindness of so many people and in
particular that of Diana Parry, who lived above her, coming down
with a hot pot of tea in a lovely teapot, the unhappiness of planning
the funeral, Wilfred Orr, very ill himself, conducting that service at
home in Lake Alma.
Her shock and grief were paralyzing. She was cold, dazed and
stunned with shock, her feelings numbed. Many kind people tried to
console her. One person said, "Your mother lived to a ripe old age
and you have to be grateful for that," but she thought, "Yes, but even
though she was ninety four, I still miss her." And she learned
something about how not to comfort the grieving.
J.C. and Myrtle Bailey said, "Your mother always believed that when
your time came to leave this earth you had to go, no hastening or
delaying." And she knew how much her mother would have hated to
go to a nursing home, which would have been likely if she had
survived.
But nothing brought her much comfort. It troubled her for a long time
that her mother had had such complete faith in her as a driver. Hulda
always had confidence that she would arrive at her destination safe
and sound when Lillian was driving. She hated the reality that she
was driving the car that brought about her mother's death.
Many years have passed since that sad time. As with Signe, the happy
memories of her mother have replaced much of the sadness. She
knows her mother is with the Lord and has forgiven her. She has
forgiven herself, but there will always be the pang of regret that she
was responsible for hastening her mother's death.
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We have already mentioned her sorrow and yet joy for her Dad when
he left this earth to be with his Lord. When her brother, Elvin, died
in 1988 it was very different. She had always assumed he would live
a long life as her mother had. She had seen him just a month before
at New Years and had thought he was fine then. But he became sick
and died in less than a week, before she even got to see him. It was
very difficult for her to accept this loss of her only brother, her
earliest childhood playmate. The family was shrinking. One more
new insight surfaced, "We learn to live with losses."
AGING
Lillian has never dreaded getting old, probably because of the
examples of her mother and dad, who aged so gracefully, always
serving God. One of her favourite quotations is, "Age is a matter of
the mind. If you don't mind, age doesn't matter." In a lecture she
gave, titled Growing Old Gracefully, she cited four pitfalls for the
elderly to avoid - isolation, inactivity, self pity and despair. She tries
to follow her own advice in these areas:
1.Isolation - Although she still lives at North Weyburn, four
miles from town, she keeps very busy with a variety of activities.
She considers herself very fortunate indeed to have a car and to
be able to continue driving, so she does a lot of visiting, travelling
and participating in community affairs.
2. Inactivity - We all know from the descriptions in the last
chapter that she's anything but inactive! She says, "I'm busy all the
time, but it doesn't take as much to keep me busy."
3. Self pity - Her activity level helps keep her in a good frame of
mind. She reminds her fellow seniors, "Instead of pitying
ourselves because we have arthritis, or because we can't walk as
fast as we used to, or do as much work, or feel that no one cares
about us, we should think about how we can be of service to
others. Everyone can still have a ministry, no matter what her
age." She stands behind the quotation, "The giving of self gives
the sweetest peace and brightest happiness."
4. Despair - She is aware that many elderly people fall into the
trap of thinking life is over, that there's nothing ahead but death.
Lillian consciously tries to maintain a sense of humour as well as
count her blessings daily. Another of her favourite quotations is,
"My business is to live as long as I can, and as well as I can, until
He thinks it's time to call me home."
THE DREAM
How does she feel about the dream of her youth now? Has Western
Christian College done what she hoped it would? Is there still a place
for a school like Western today? The original dream was that, in
addition to education, there would be an emphasis on farming,
primarily because most of the students were farm children. They
would be able to work in lieu of tuition, and perhaps even learn a
trade. While that part of their scheme was never fully implemented,
Radville, later Western Christian College did provide the kind of
atmosphere and instruction, both academic and spiritual, that those
early visionaries wanted for Christian young people.
Lillian remains completely convinced that Christian education is of
inestimable worth. There is no price that can be put on the souls of
our children. They still benefit in untold ways from academic
instruction in an atmosphere where God's way of living and choosing
is the accepted and approved norm. They still yearn for the kind of
wholesome, high-minded, lifelong companionships they have the
opportunity to make at a place like Western. Sitting and observing the
reunion of these relationships at the annual Homecoming celebrations
is a heart-warming witness of this. She says, "Western Christian
College still provides what we started out with in a day when it is
needed perhaps even more. The conventional standards of behaviour
in our society have strayed farther and farther from Biblical patterns
and our young people are facing problems we never even thought of
when the school was founded fifty years ago!"
THE CHURCH
The older Lillian gets, the more she values and cherishes the church -
the people of God - her brothers and sisters. This fellowship of
believers has always been a substantial power in her life. It was
always a factor in deciding where she would live and work.
Much has changed in the church, as well as in Lillian, over the years.
For example, the long three week meetings she loved so much no
longer happen, but her reaction is that we don't need to feel badly
about it; the changing of traditions isn't necessarily bad. People's lives
and lifestyles are different today; it is logical that different things are
effective.
Some of the changes she has seen in the church over the last seventy
years please her. She's gratified that we as a people have become
more interested in helping others with problems they struggle with
here in this life. The focus of attention used to be to not worry about
what is happening here and now, but rather to focus on our security
in heaven and making sure we're going the right way to get there.
There seems to be more recognition now that if we're to love these
people as God has instructed us to, we have to meet them where they
are. Certainly our ultimate hope is that those we come in contact with
will turn their minds and their hearts towards God, but part of helping
them to do that is assisting and supporting them as they deal with
whatever is causing them pain right now, whether it is their
marriages, their loneliness, their addictions, or whatever.
Another change she has observed is that we have become a middle
class church and she has doubts about that being what God intended;
Jesus said he came to help the hurting. She believes that one of the
reasons the church is growing so rapidly in Africa and other
developing areas is that the people who have so few earthly
possessions or rewards think more readily about spiritual things. For
example, in Ghana, where most of her Bible correspondence course
work has been done, there were no congregations of the church thirty
years ago; today there are over five hundred, some with more than
five hundred members.
While some of the changes in the way we work and worship are
somewhat uncomfortable for her at first, she is pleased that younger
people are recognizing the need to adjust some of our customs,
(although not, of course, our principles or our faith in God's Word)
to appeal to the people of this present day who need God's love and
saving grace as much as we do. She notes that it is harder for all of us
to accept change after we pass middle age, but sees that as an
opportunity to grow as we continue to serve.
She remembers with great fondness the small home churches. There
was a closeness not possible in large congregations. In a small group,
everyone participated, no one was left out - and no one daydreamed!
On the other hand, though, she does dearly love the sound of a large
group of believers singing their praises to God, never possible in a
small home church.
She appreciates good oral Bible reading but she seldom hears it any
more and that saddens her. She believes this is something that has
been neglected in training our young men. She remembers the time
at Western when oral Bible reading was important enough for there
to be yearly competitions and a trophy for the best Bible reader.
Not only is the Bible not read well, it seems to have lost some of its
importance as well. She doesn't hear the respect shown to the public
reading of scripture; it seems rather, to have become a necessary part
of the Sunday morning service to get done with quickly. She
challenges someone to revive the interest in, the importance of, and
the respect for the public reading of God's Word!
The apostle John, at the end of his gospel said, "Jesus did many other
things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that
even the whole world would not have room for the books that would
be written." I feel somewhat similar about Lillian. There seems to be
no end to stories that could be told. There are scores, maybe
hundreds, of people, many not even mentioned in this book, who
have been touched and blessed by knowing her. I thank God I have
been one of them.
I asked her for a message for all of her spiritual children, and I leave
you with that.
Happiness
is found in self-forgetful devotion to some thing
or someone beyond ourselves.
I believe very strongly in Albert Schweitzer's message
"I do not know what your destiny will be,
but one thing I know,
the only ones among you who will be really happy
are those who have sought and found how to serve."
The best therapy for our own trouble is to help
somebody else who is in trouble. There will be troubles;
there will be pain; there will be difficulties;
but they will work together for the good if we love the
Lord.
Somehow life will become better.